Never once did we ever walk alone
Never once did You leave us on our own...
You are faithful, God, You are faithful.
Those three lines of words hit so hard to home to me...
As I look back at the things I've been thru in the last 3 or so years of my life, those words couldn't be any more true. During the most trying times of my life, He never left my side, He never turned His head from me & He never made me face things all alone.
This just amazes me. No matter how big or how bad the sin is that we commit, He is faithful!-He is right there! He held me up during some of the most difficult times in my life! I may not have realized it then, but I realize it now, more than ever & am so thankful for that. My dad has always told me & my brother that "We can't do it alone"...that is SO true! We have to lean on Him & believe that He will take care of our needs. This is so hard for me sometimes being super Type A, & a planner! But it really does make life easier when you quite wasting time worrying about things that you can't control! Give it to the Lord & let Him take care of it..& He will take care in ways you may not have ever dreamed!
He has been faithful to me & my family in so many ways...just to name a few.
-Allowing us to find out my dad had prostate cancer when he was just trying to get more life insurance for his family just in case something every happened to him. If he hadn't have been getting more life insurance, & hadn't have had to get his blood drawn for the process, he would have had the cancer for probably years living & growing inside his body, before it would have shown up else where. He is faithful. (Just a little did bit of my incite...if you don't have life insurance & have kids, GO GET IT for you & your spouse TODAY--BEFORE you get diagnosed with cancer! Once you have cancer, you can't get any life insurance or any additional, for 6 or so years. Yes, I'm only 22, but I have life insurance! I would rather get it now, while I am able to because I am young & healthy rather than waiting till I'm "older" to get it, but it being too late because I have been diagnosed with some kind of cancer, & can no longer get it to make sure my son is taken care of when I'm gone. It can cost as less than $10 a month. JUST something to think about! I'm not expert...but my parents have taught me a thing or two over the years! :P)
-Even though I made the choices I did, & got pregnant before I was married, He allowed me to carry a healthy little boy to full term (& then some...) & was perfectly healthy the day he was born & we haven't had any problems since then! I feel SO SO SO undeserving of this, it's something I often struggle with. But...He is faithful.
-I thought I was doing the right thing by getting married when I found out I was pregnant. But that was obviously not what God had in store for me, or my little man. This may sound totally wrong to you...but God allowed me to get out of that marriage I wasn't supposed to be in, in a short amount of time, allowing me to restart my life before it was too late. He is faithful.
-If I hadn't have gotten a divorce when I did, I don't think I would have ever gone back to school...& that is something I am so thankful for. He is faithful.
-After me & Ryder had lived with my parents (& brother) for 6-7 months, a house built in 1962 at the front of my parent's neighborhood, that we had never even noticed before went up for sale. We looked at it the day the sign went up in the front yard & bought it the next day. It was cute on the outside & even cuter on the inside! This was totally a God thing, & the fact that he allowed my parents to be in a place where they could buy it for me & Ryder to live in. Not to mention walking distance from parent's house. I can see their house from my kitchen window. I don't think I have to say it...but...He is faithful.
Those are just a few things that I can think of to name right now. This post has been on my heart since Sunday & I have just been putting it off because I didn't know if I would have all the right words to say. I know this is just a blog, but sometimes I think it helps me by just being able to have some where out on the WWW that's "mine" to voice my thoughts & opinions--has taught me SO much. I love that I can get on here & write how I am feeling & the things on my heart, & the things God is trying to teach me. I hope I didn't just totally bore you guys to death!